I am a car running on fumes...
Drained
It has been a loooooong weekend. My body is completely sore, I'm totally exhausted, and trust me...I'm NOT exhaggerating. I didn't go into work today because of this long weekend. Not only because I was up late consoling a friend, because even after I got home(this morning) I was still awake for another couple of hours. It is already past noon, and I'm barely out of bed. Friday night, I went to watch Spider-man w/ Chris and Caren (Caren just got back from Europe the night before). Mind you we watched a 7PM showing and I was hoping to head to LA early so that Glenn and I could get a good's nite's rest before playing basketball all day for that tournament on Sat. Unfortunately, Glenn ended up being out until about 11:30 and we didn't get to LA until 1AM. So much for a good nite's rest... We wake up at 6:45 AM Sat, eat and head for the b-ball tourney. Gosh I love basketball... But that tournament was too taxing on my body. I played every game sitting out only about 5-10 min per game for four games...and it was intense...people were SOOOO serious? I couldn't believe it. Unfortuntately we won two games and lost two games, but I was a little relieved to have lost the last game because I just don't think we would've had enough to play 2 more games. Plus, I had found out some rather disturbing news right before the last game that I played...of which I will talk about later. So we leave early, a lil dejected, and go back to my folks' place to get ready for a friend's Grad/Bon Voyage party. I was just out of it at that point, and wanted to go home as soon as I talked to her already. I was just exhausted. I tried to get my mind off of things by staying distracted, but I just couldn't. We were back at my folks' by 11 and back in Irvine by midnight. Sunday, went to church at St. John Neumann, where some unexpected event happened at church that just freaked everyone out for a moment. A man came up to the lectern during mass and started to speak, out of nowhere, and he was escorted out of the church kicking and screaming...and some people even left becuase they probably thought something bad was going to happen...but I don't blame them, in this day and age. We went to the Angels/Seattle Mariners game, which was cool, ate at MY FAVORITE RESTAURANT, Thai BBQ, and then went home. At about 11PM last night I went over to my friend's place to chill and tried to keep her from stressing out so much. Like I said at the beginning, I came home really late(or is it early?), slept a little, and here I am, blogging...
Life's curveballs
My mind is just in total chaos right now. So I said that I found out some rather disturbing news right before my last game on Saturday. It had to do w/ my family, specifically my Lolo Bo(who is not my actual grandfather, but my grandfather on my dad's side's brother). My sister called me and told me that he had had a heart attack and apparently, they weren't able to get him to the hospital on time, and now, he's braindead and on life support. So now, they're trying to decide whether or not to pull the plug. I don't even know what I'm thinking anymore, or what I'm doing, or what I'm SUPPOSED to be doing. I know I should be sad, but it just hasn't hit me yet...he used to LIVE w/ us! I remember the days when he would have to take care of me and my sister all day while my parents were at work. He was soooo funny. And now, I won't get the chance to talk to him again...until the next life. I've never lost someone this close to me, and yes, I know that I haven't really lost him, but yet I have... I know everyone has their own way to deal w/ things. My parents seem to be very ok w/ it, even somewhat emotionally detached from it...maybe it's just how older people deal w/ it. My sister told me she cried it out already...and sometimes, I get really sad, but still...I just don't know what to do. Tiburcio Bermudez...I love you....and I long to see you again...
Faith
It's difficult to keep your Faith strong when you think everything's going wrong... "Even though you have a God, sometimes it's just not enough." That's what my friend told me last night. It just made me sad to hear that because I know she's not the only one who's experienced things that make her feel that way. So, I asked her for her bible and gave her the following quote back, "I know the thoughts I think toward you, saith the Lord, thougts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end." (Jer 29:11) I told her that's what I always try to remember when things aren't going the way we had hoped, or if some crazy curve ball was just thrown at us. And it reminded me that that's what I needed to remember right now too...
"Do not seek to follow the footsteps of the men of old. Seek what they sought."
-Basho
Drained
It has been a loooooong weekend. My body is completely sore, I'm totally exhausted, and trust me...I'm NOT exhaggerating. I didn't go into work today because of this long weekend. Not only because I was up late consoling a friend, because even after I got home(this morning) I was still awake for another couple of hours. It is already past noon, and I'm barely out of bed. Friday night, I went to watch Spider-man w/ Chris and Caren (Caren just got back from Europe the night before). Mind you we watched a 7PM showing and I was hoping to head to LA early so that Glenn and I could get a good's nite's rest before playing basketball all day for that tournament on Sat. Unfortunately, Glenn ended up being out until about 11:30 and we didn't get to LA until 1AM. So much for a good nite's rest... We wake up at 6:45 AM Sat, eat and head for the b-ball tourney. Gosh I love basketball... But that tournament was too taxing on my body. I played every game sitting out only about 5-10 min per game for four games...and it was intense...people were SOOOO serious? I couldn't believe it. Unfortuntately we won two games and lost two games, but I was a little relieved to have lost the last game because I just don't think we would've had enough to play 2 more games. Plus, I had found out some rather disturbing news right before the last game that I played...of which I will talk about later. So we leave early, a lil dejected, and go back to my folks' place to get ready for a friend's Grad/Bon Voyage party. I was just out of it at that point, and wanted to go home as soon as I talked to her already. I was just exhausted. I tried to get my mind off of things by staying distracted, but I just couldn't. We were back at my folks' by 11 and back in Irvine by midnight. Sunday, went to church at St. John Neumann, where some unexpected event happened at church that just freaked everyone out for a moment. A man came up to the lectern during mass and started to speak, out of nowhere, and he was escorted out of the church kicking and screaming...and some people even left becuase they probably thought something bad was going to happen...but I don't blame them, in this day and age. We went to the Angels/Seattle Mariners game, which was cool, ate at MY FAVORITE RESTAURANT, Thai BBQ, and then went home. At about 11PM last night I went over to my friend's place to chill and tried to keep her from stressing out so much. Like I said at the beginning, I came home really late(or is it early?), slept a little, and here I am, blogging...
Life's curveballs
My mind is just in total chaos right now. So I said that I found out some rather disturbing news right before my last game on Saturday. It had to do w/ my family, specifically my Lolo Bo(who is not my actual grandfather, but my grandfather on my dad's side's brother). My sister called me and told me that he had had a heart attack and apparently, they weren't able to get him to the hospital on time, and now, he's braindead and on life support. So now, they're trying to decide whether or not to pull the plug. I don't even know what I'm thinking anymore, or what I'm doing, or what I'm SUPPOSED to be doing. I know I should be sad, but it just hasn't hit me yet...he used to LIVE w/ us! I remember the days when he would have to take care of me and my sister all day while my parents were at work. He was soooo funny. And now, I won't get the chance to talk to him again...until the next life. I've never lost someone this close to me, and yes, I know that I haven't really lost him, but yet I have... I know everyone has their own way to deal w/ things. My parents seem to be very ok w/ it, even somewhat emotionally detached from it...maybe it's just how older people deal w/ it. My sister told me she cried it out already...and sometimes, I get really sad, but still...I just don't know what to do. Tiburcio Bermudez...I love you....and I long to see you again...
Faith
It's difficult to keep your Faith strong when you think everything's going wrong... "Even though you have a God, sometimes it's just not enough." That's what my friend told me last night. It just made me sad to hear that because I know she's not the only one who's experienced things that make her feel that way. So, I asked her for her bible and gave her the following quote back, "I know the thoughts I think toward you, saith the Lord, thougts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end." (Jer 29:11) I told her that's what I always try to remember when things aren't going the way we had hoped, or if some crazy curve ball was just thrown at us. And it reminded me that that's what I needed to remember right now too...
"Do not seek to follow the footsteps of the men of old. Seek what they sought."
-Basho
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